Thursday, September 26, 2013

And the word is... I'M BACK AND NOT HOLDING BACK THIS GO AROUND!

VERY IMPORTANT: Press play on the video before reading this rant. The soundtrack just adds to it...and I write like I talk, so be ready to replay the song halfway through lol  
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So here's the deal. I've reached my breaking point today. I have always been one of those people who feed off of the energy around me, gaining joy and fulfillment from the positive aura of those people and situations close-by. Unfortunately, that also means that the same thing happens with negativity. And that's what has brought about this collection of thoughts I want to share....

I can't deal with this negativity anymore. It is totally taking over my every breath and it has to stop. As many have noticed, I've pulled away from a lot of interaction via text, Facebook, emails, etc and it is simply because I need a few moments to recharge. What happened to the love?

I'm so tired of seeing people cut others down, spread vicious rumors, act like kids.... we are all humans and have the right and choice to behave how we choose, but it's disheartening to witness people making the choice to breed and feed negativity instead of fostering love and hope. 

Stop cutting people down for being who they are. They don't dress the same as you? Don't love the same as you? Don't fit your mold of what sexy, fit, successful, and lovely is? Too bad. We weren't all made to be the same person. Variety is the spice of life and if this was a Thai restaurant, I'd ask for a heat index of 10 because different is beautiful and loving your fellow human beings regardless of how they look, dress, love, or believe? That's hot.

You see people fighting for a cause? Help the fight, don't be a voice of doubt. I'm thinking specifically of those nay-sayers getting on me for my constant posts about the upcoming AIDS Walk. To you, I say, "Get over it." This is a passion of mine, it is something I live, sleep, and breathe daily. Is it hurting anyone? Not that I'm aware of. Is it annoying sometimes? Uhhhh yuh! But it's not nearly as annoying as the hundreds of posts I see daily about another D-list celeb shaving her head because she's cracked out, people dramatically whining and crying about not being able to find that perfect mate, or individuals just trying to drum up drama with those who will read their posts. I truly cannot understand how so many people have turned a blind eye to my posts, begging and pleading, not for money and walkers, but just for support and love for those of us asking for it. And it's not the case just for this AIDS Walk, but for so many things. Maybe we can't all give money, but love and support are free....and often times more valuable than any monetary donation you can find. Love and support... that's what a community is about.

And it isn't just on an individual level. So many agencies, establishments, and community organizations were created to foster this idea of communal love and support. Yet, as of late, those very same labels are the ones at the forefront of childish drama, despicable behavior, and falling guilty of not building a community, but tearing it apart. On behalf of those suffering, please think about the bigger picture. It isn't about who can get more Facebook posts in, who's events are swamped and who's are empty, or which agency will be the most popular. The real goal should be to build a community - instead of breeding and feeding negativity, foster love and support instead. I can guarantee it is what we need as a community. Even still, there is one more aspect of love and support that is missing... and it comes from within. 

We can't truly love and support our friends or our communities until we first love and support ourselves. Society says you are ugly? Society says you are worth nothing? Society says you have nothing to contribute? Who cares... What do YOU think? True love and support has to start inside ourselves first. We can't survive off the positivity of others. We must reciprocate, in some way or another, the positive energy that we use daily to thrive. If we are all takers, the supply will run low and we will be left wallowing in rotting, useless, draining negativity. I for one, can't do that. 

I'm taking this moment, right here and right now, to stand up for love. Granted, I'm going to fall sometimes and not be quite as loving and supportive as I should be, but I'm going to try. That's what I am asking of you.... please try. 

Without love we are nothing. Without trying we are doomed.


All my love and support,
Me.